A Day Where All Things Will Begin Again

A new day, a new month, in a new place. Its 9.14am on a sunny Saturday morning and i'm blogging when i could still be tucked away neatly in my warm and cozy bed. Sometimes people have weird pangs of doing things don't they. And nothing  can stop them at it.

Well, it's not all happy-joy-joy-rolling-around-doing-cartwheels kinda thing here in Melbourne for the month and a half im here. I was (note the past tense) miserable even on the first day i got here and was doing 'what-the-hell am-i-doing-here' kinda mind war. I thought it was a mistake. And even now, EVERY minute, i'm thinking it's a mistake coming here and i should have stayed where i was surrounded by familiar faces and friends. But that got me thinking, "What do i get back if i stayed at home till the day i shift out or get married or somewhat?" I would have to start my life THAT time wouldn't it? So it's a blessing in disguise of hardship to toughen me up, buttering me for harder paths ahead.

In maybe 5 years time, i will be looking back and saying to myself "That problem was so minor and bullshit-y! How could i ever have troubled myself over THAT?". Yes, i'm sure you get that too don't you? We all do. Like when i was in college and thinking i MUST get that pair of shoes otherwise i will be so un-cool and don't fit in. Or when i was in secondary 3 and thinks that i must get everybody to like me, so i was treated more like a slave than a helpful friend. Those things were so.... (flicked last finger).... minor! And the worse part is i let it get the better of me! I let that dreadful feeling, that i was small (though i am but i'm meaning mind small) and worthless and not good enough for the world and everything i do always fails or ends badly, concentrate in my mind! Yes! I unknowingly was thinking about all the bad things that were happening to me and kept re-enforcing in my mind that im worthless!

And now.. I realised i have so much of  a better personality, life and most importantly the mind now then i was last 5 years. I'm always reading and get people or emails telling me..

"You must ALWAYS look on the brighter, positive side of things no matter how shitty your situation's been"

I know its HARD! But i keep trying! Because if i drown myself in sorrow now thinking, "oh how i wish this" and "how i wish that", im only going to worry my family and friends and well... basically people who loves me. And they may not know this, but they mean the world to me. They all do. Guess my constantly wanting to please people trait would always be inside of me. The Facebook app. said that i'm the spirit that brings happiness onto others. Haha! Eventhough its only "Facebook", but i would like to believe so. ><

Well! Eventhough i stayed positive, i still have not much friends yet! Haha! The people at school i wouldnt really call them friends yet. But back in March, i had a group assignment, and i met this mix of people and personalities and the best part is, we all clicked! We worked perfectly alongside one another, helping each other, stressing together cause of last minute work. And i swear. That this was the BEST assignment i ever had. Not because of the title of the assgn, which was "Latest Assisted Reproductive Technologies" (absolute bore), but because of my new friends. Let me give some credit to Keisuke (Japan), Van (Sydney), William (Vietnam), Dheshnee (Africa), and Lydia (I dont know).  ><

Hmm.. That's about it! Need to eat breakfast, which is now officially my favourite meal of the day because of.......MILO (heavenly music plays in the background)........ Haha! I am seriously ADDICTED to Milo! That is kinda bad isn't it? =( But i cant help it! Anyway, Hey guys, Woolworths is selling two 750g Milo tin for only $10 in conjunction with Easter! WHOOOHOOO! I've bought two cans already yesterday. Im going again today to get 2 more to stock for the Autumn. Its getting cold here! My feet and fingers are always blue. =S Worrisome.. See you!

P.S. Attending as Guest Judge to my cousin's Ramen Cookoff tonight! Good food for free? Who doesn't like being a judge? =)

P.P.S. My phone bill this month is $40!! I died yesterday in front of the computer when i saw the bill.